OH!

So I was discussing proposition 8 with my mom, because she has decided to be super-christian.

And I've decided it's really just legislation of semantics!

According to her, banning gay marriage doesn't impinge upon anyone's right to marry, because a marriage requires a man and a woman by definition.

Then I asked her if a marriage was a marriage without god (because this is a very common thing to hear at christian weddings "make god the center of your marriage blah blah blah"), so she nodded!

If marriage is indeed defined this way (which is where the semantic discussion is involved) then banning gay marriage is certainly defendable.

I argued that this definition is biased by uncountable ages of christian domination, and legislating a religious definition violates our church/state separation.

Then she countered by remarking that gay people shouldn't be so caught up in it if it's a religious definition, and a religious institution.

I said I agreed, but I still think legislation based on the values of a particular faith should be avoided at all costs.

lalala, I'll be voting no on 8.

so I'm thinking about chopping my hairs off.



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This weekend was...super relaxing. (XTREME)

I am more at peace at this mooment than I have been as far back as I can remember.

I finished listening to Anthem, on audiobook, and I think that may have something to do with it.

It's a very comforting thing to hear.

Other possible factors:
I got a crapload of sleep.
I saw some fun people I hadn't seen for ages.
I danced for hours, and hours, and even more hours. (bhangra is so much fun, I can't believe it)
on friday my boss told me (at length) how awesome I am.
I ate a whopping fuckbucket of curry.
I saw the Mummy (the one with jet li), which was awful yet fulfilling, and I saw it with my fellow mummy-lover, whom I haven't seen is asslongs of time.
I washed my hair with coal tar and my body with oatmeal? Also my face with sand. (showering at friends' houses is always interesting)
Johnny Walker is always a good friend. (especially at an open bar!)

I just finished watching Paranoia Agent.

I think it is about staying in touch with reality, but I can't be sure.

About taking responsibility for your situation, and not taking the easy way out, either through indulgent distractions or by laying the blame on something else.

It isn't easy, but it's important to keep a clear head.

If too many people are running around allowing themselves to be deceived, Tokyo gets covered in black slime and has to be rebuilt, and a little kid in golden rollerblades turns into a gigantic demon and does battle with a former-detective-turned-holy-warrior.

In any case, cute things are evil.


Also: this laptop is so quiet it's creepy.

[19:55] Ferris73085: OH, so i had a question for you
[19:55] TehAudiophile: shoot
[19:56] Ferris73085: okay, so i have this phone "mtg" with a professor from michigan state
[19:56] Ferris73085: and i have to think of some things to ask her and also sound moderately intelligent.
[19:56] Ferris73085: .....any ideas?
[19:56] Ferris73085: hahah
[19:58] TehAudiophile: haha
[19:58] TehAudiophile: do you know what kind of reserach she is doing?
[19:58] Ferris73085: yeah
[19:59] Ferris73085: she does developmental/education research
[19:59] Ferris73085: with young children and math concepts
[19:59] Ferris73085: like..learning how to do complex operations using concerte metaphors... when/how they learn place values
[20:00] TehAudiophile: you could bother her about controls, and how she knows what's real data and what's garbage
[20:00] Ferris73085: yeah..
[20:00] Ferris73085: so ask like HOW she collects her data
[20:00] Ferris73085: either control/experimental groups or just ethnographic observation type stuff
[20:01] TehAudiophile: and are they experiments or just studies?
[20:01] Ferris73085: mmm. good
[20:01] Ferris73085: i think they may be studies...
[20:01] Ferris73085: which i do not like as much
[20:01] TehAudiophile: can't really do experiments without studies
[20:01] Ferris73085: yeah
[20:01] Ferris73085: haha
[20:02] TehAudiophile: even in chem, this is true
[20:02] Ferris73085: yeahhhhh
[20:02] Ferris73085: i think a lot of her work is like..direct observation in classrooms
[20:02] TehAudiophile: so she's a creepy old lady
[20:02] Ferris73085: where the teachers test a strategy for teachinig lilke.... long division
[20:02] Ferris73085: and then she sees how the kids react
[20:02] Ferris73085: NO, she is young
[20:02] Ferris73085: like... 40
[20:03] TehAudiophile: ask her how creepy she is, on a scale of 1 to 10
[20:03] Ferris73085: LOL
[20:03] Ferris73085: i can't ask her THAT!
[20:03] Ferris73085: geez.
[20:03] TehAudiophile: professors love it
[20:04] Ferris73085: no they don't
[20:04] Ferris73085: hahaha
[20:05] TehAudiophile: I did a badass job when I did my interviews
[20:05] TehAudiophile: but it was easier for me, because I didn't know much to start with
[20:05] TehAudiophile: about what they were doing
[20:06] TehAudiophile: so I pretty much pulled all of the project out of them
[20:06] Ferris73085: haha badass huh?
[20:06] Ferris73085: you asked how creepy they were?
[20:06] TehAudiophile: twice.
[20:06] Ferris73085: SERIOUSLY?!
[20:06] Ferris73085: what did they say??
[20:06] TehAudiophile: hahahaha
[20:06] TehAudiophile: no, I didn't ask that
[20:06] Ferris73085: u suck.
[20:06] Ferris73085: haha

I have a new "hardest thing I've ever done."

I broke up with kat.

Man, I'm kinda pissed.

Anger is an emotion I don't really get to do very often. So I kinda forgot what it was like.

Not pleasant.

Feels like I have a mud brick behind my eyes.

And I keep staring at things for too long.

Good thing for music or I'd be going completely crazy.

Anger twinged with confusion.

Confusion makes my neck tingle.

I would like to learn to be confrontational now, please.

I don't really know how to handle it when someone repeatedly does something they know I don't want them to do.

It's not like I can just tell them to stop doing it; that clearly has not worked.

One third of me votes for punchings, and one third votes for passive-aggressive randomness.

The other third watches the first two thirds argue, and quietly does nothing.

I can't wait to leave.

Doom. Such doom.

I did a bad bad thing.

today I found fat chinese waldo.

He was riding a bike near campus.

Your Boobies' Names Are...

The Bazoombas

me: hi.

test: FUCK YOU

*test punches me in the face*

me: oh shit

*test rapes my face*

*I gag*

*test punches me again*

*I get knocked out*

*after several hours, I wake up in a field, with a pinecone in my rectum*

*I go home, painfully remove the pinecone, and take a shower*

*test breaks into my house, punches me in the kidney, and proceeds to rape me from behind*

*I blow my rape-whistle*

*the test rapes my rape-whistle until it breaks, then starts raping me again*

*the test finishes, then cuddle-rapes me, then rapes me again*

*I gladly lose consciousness*

*test continues to rape me, over and over and over*

*I wake up in the morning, alone*

*I shower, then start making some breakfast*

*the test rapes my breakfast, then rapes me while eating my raped breakfast*

*I just kinda lay on the kitchen floor, not really paying attention to anything*

*the test rapes everything in the house, then goes outside, raping everything it can catch*

*I cackle, carefully remove all of the food in the fridge, take out the shelves, climb into the fridge, close the door, and sing the national anthem thirty-seven times*

dude 1: "The flight's been cancelled."

*dude 2 pulls out a gun*

dude 2: "I am sorry to inform you that you have been cancelled."

I just almost brushed my armpit with toothbrush and toothpaste.

That would have been exceedingly unpleasant.

Did you know that physics and anatomy are mutually exclusive?

sunkens mostly suck, two should be enough....maaaaybe a couple more if necessary.

lurker tech asap.

defiler tech asap.

explore rushing possibilities.

scourge. (remember they exist)

gasgasgas...joo needs teh gas.

try to force fights away from chokes...zerg = numbers.

be sneaky with burrow.

maybe learn this muta harass nonsense...possibly use waypoints?

Today I realized that when I ask someone if I'm going crazy, I'm actually considering it as a real possibility.

I realized it when this happened:

"Have you been ignoring me?"

"No."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

"Well, am I just going crazy then?"

"I think so."

"Oh. (long pause) Well, I don't feel like I'm going crazy?"

This is actually really intriguing to me...I really do have doubts about my own sanity, and accept the possibility that I might not be all there upstairs.

Weird!

Female attention makes me stupid?

I am so frustrated.